Out of Control!

I don't usually think of myself as a control freak. To be honest, I'm not really organised enough to be a control freak - usually I manage to get myself to the right place at the right time with the right things I need, and if I've managed that, then I've done alright - for anything more complicated I rely on the wonders of an electronic diary and of my fabulously organised wife!

So, being completely in control isn't usually something that worries me. But this week, I've felt completely and totally out of control, and I haven't liked that feeling much. Most people reading this will probably know that we're in the middle of some pretty major building work at home at the moment, and the challenge of juggling the main contractor and the things we need to do for him, along with the plasterer, plumber, electrician, carpet fitters and decorators - alongside the fun of annual insurance renewals, MOTs, Car Tax its just getting too much - and thats without considering my paid job or my voluntary role as Church Treasurer! At the moment I feel very much like a juggler who has just dropped most of his balls and doesn't know how to pick the dropped ones up without also dropping the few that are still circling!

And yet, Psalm 46 tells me:-

"He says, 'be still and know that I am God

I will be exalted among the nations,

I will be exalted in the earth'"

Where in my schedule do I have time to stop and be still - and yet, unless I do, the world is going to keep spinning around me, more and more balls tumbling to the ground... Perhaps its time to stop writing about this and start trusting in the God who manages and sustains an infinitely more complicated building project than our loft conversion - the entirety of history - and still has time to love and care about me...